I was never good at accepting compliments.

I always assumed people said I sang well or killed the drums because that’s what you’re SUPPOSED to say to someone when they step off stage.

I ALWAYS knew every single mistake & fuck up I just made & you called it amazing, wonderful, extraordinary none the less?! Get OUT o here. Lol. I was SO self deprecating that I always figured people were exaggerating.

Even now when I thank people for their compliments, in my head I’m thinking they’re lying little bitches. Lol. I’m not the best I could possibly be… At ANYTHING I do.

Compliment me when I get there.

Thinking about that just made me remember

When I had to teach someone their solo less than 20 minutes before taking the stage in front of a few thousand people together… We went downstairs & were aware of the time crunch, so I just started singing it for her in a small corridor & when I realized she was blown away & paying attention to hearing the shy, quite girl’s voice instead of focusing on the song I became SO self aware. It’s freaking weird

Sometimes I’ll use words I didn’t even know I knew mid conversation

…. &then while finishing that sentence I become conscious of it & make myself stop talking.
I do the same thing when someone touches on a subject I’m passionate about discussing with others….

I’ve always had an issue with making eye contact with people while I’m speaking ((because I used to be so self conscious about voicing my thoughts knowing it’d make people pay attention to me)), but I have been trying to be better about it, so sometimes when I look up & see people looking so intently & amazed at what I’m saying I just have to take a step back & have a “woah, chilllll” moment.

Even though what I’m saying is usually really important, I have to step back and shut the fuck up. Just… Stop looking at me!!? Please…?

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themochagoddess:

nanodash:

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Is this real? Ima have to read this tomorrow.